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I'm having massive migraine, head pain since yesterday untill today ... NOW!!

The moment I stand up, i feel shaky... I'm drowsy...very drowsy....

I just want myself back~!~!

Somehow or rather I'm not able to do it...

So many things in my head which yes its true I can;t concernrate to what I'm doing which is very bad.

So many negatives things arising in my head... sometimes I feel empty less...

So many negatives makes me to do what I don't want to do or not supposed to do it....

So many negatives makes me to hurt myself.. which I finds it bored...and worthless..

So many negatives leads myself to tell myself all the time I'M NOT XXXXXX !!

That effing word have been haunted myself, counting 23 years... Oh Lord, please help me~!~!



So many negatives makes me to don;t know what to say or talk....

GIVES ME MIGRAINE!! and growing white hairs!!! Haih.....

So many negatives spoiling myself....



Reminding myself positive words doesn't help myself.. somehow or rather...

WHY??? I have no clue....


DEAD
If I'm that xxxxxxxx, I wouldn't be here....