Girlfriend Outing

Today after my interview, called Veron and meet up with her and Yazmin was already with her...so why not... Went to MCD, sekyen 14 nearby my house to have nuggets and spend Veron and Yazmin a drink and u know chit chat and lots of stories to tell..as usuall...=)


After that, walked to Veron's house and i told her to paint my nails striking blue...hehe..and my toes purplish....hehe..totally blend with my fair skin tone...lolz...looks...wid and pretty..not boring colors!!!

Then as usual we were talking bout guys, sex, everything! hehe...
Waited for the rain to stop, then Yazmin have to go home already and me stuck at Veron's house and she suddenly came out an idea to go out...watch a movie and have dinner together..but we both were thinking it will be jammed cause its raining so heavily and will be packed so why not just do it tomorrow... instead...

so we went to Pizza Hut, seksyen 14 to have dinner,.,., Before that, Veron and me walking home to my house with a big umbrella....hehe... like old skool days.... so I took my shower and took my car to go to pizza hut..drove 2 rounds to find a parking....

We ordered the 2 person, set inclusive of 2 mushroom soups, 2 glass of pepsi, 1 small cheezy beef pizza, 1 tempura prawn spaghetti and add on chili chicken wings. SO FULL!!! and i couldn't eat already....and Veron's forcing me to eat...MY STOMACH SO FAT!!! huhu.....

Then she want to go to DVD shop..so we went me and her bought 3 DVD's and FREE DVD which we are allowed to choose.. It's really clear.... and now I'm watching it some...hehe...

So tomorrow I suggested to her why not have a movie marathon at her house since our boyfriends is not here.... lolz...better la.... beeennn ages i din do that spending time with my girflriends.... Veronica knows me too well... even at her house her mum cooked corn..u knw jagung??? then she told me she put butter and salt on it so the taste will look better... so okay i eat.. then stop me.. she said : You better don't eat all of it , later you won't take dinner at all... or you will eat damn litte... HAHAHAHA!!! I say wahh you really know me ya.... then she say of coz la..how many many years man...Actually we known each other like 15years already since primary till NOW! It's hard to maintained this kind of friendship as we grew from young till now there is like so many things to laughed about... and we just grow.... and I would like to say she is one of my bestest bestest girlfriend....seriously... she's bubbly and all whatever she takes....=)

So today i had a great time with her.. It's really good....

Stresssssss...... More stressss....more more stressss.......

Today, 1.35pm.... I'm getting more stressed in whatever I'm doing... Stressed as in really dead stresss... Screaming to myself what does it have to happened to me in this way... what did i do to deserve it??? Am I really that "Useless" or stupidddd??? AM I??? I always Question myself almost every single day... Never missed it.... I do it when I'm home.... Outside.... Anywhere.... with friends......Boyfriend?? I'm getting so miserable..... too gloomy and sad untilll I don;t even want to talk to my own boyfriend....

She's like finding her ownself in her own body.. but it's getting too deep into her whereby she has too many dreams which sometimes it did came true.... She cannot think anymore... cannot do what she always plan for the next day... She don't want to talk or express it out... If she feels comfortable and yes she will scream her lungs out... and NOW..... She's living in her own dark world... in her dark room.... YOU...if you are reading it..... and thinking im really a pathetic psychotic person, please leave my blog...


TOO MANY of stupid problems keep arising non stop from the start from dunno years ago till now...... makes me go GILA!!
I can talk to myself.... yes i could... i can do it everyday.... I don';t care....

You know, I always pray I'' died in a car crash accident.... How I wish I will... I don't know why...
So many times problems which makes me sick like this makes me not to love myself......

I did have many, many times nearly nearly got into an accident......

First Nearly escape accident :

1) The night before that, I cried for some reasons.... The next morning I woke up... My mind wasn't in me... I get ready... I walked out from my house.. I din see any car coming.... It was empty.... I walked, I was supposed to go to college.... I stand in the middle of the road.... I don't even know what the hell am i thinking... Like I said,....My mind isn;t with me....The car was really honking at me and I did not even hear a single thing... He was so close to my body... damn close... until someone shouted at me..and my mind woke up.... I cross over.... and funny I don't even know what exactly happened to me.....( Very true story as my OWN MUM was there )




Continue next day.... She's out of MOOD!

Knowing people.....

These are the people which were supporting during my 1st heat of pageant... Thanks!
Left : Nic, Wilma + Khairul + Natasha + Jaya ++ Stephanie...

and my bestest good friend of all..... the one who listens to my gossips....the one that i always take her in for my photoshoot and the one that accept for who I am

You see the middle girl ...she look alike like Amber Chia right? She's from Taiwan and she's really damn damn tall!!! Can't remember her name......loozzzz

This is the joker la... Patrick Tee.... yeah he looks old here...hehe...
But he's a really really nice person... No regrets in knowing him......
He don't care whether you are fat, short, thin or anything....
For him taking nice pictures for the model is much more important as the quality of the picture counts so as the lighting and effect and themes....

Great Models and Beautiful Models in Person.....

Me and Kelvin, he's the make up artist from SNIPS and yes he's the one who did the make up for me as I was supporting Angela so my makeup was all in purple... even my lips color...=)... she was in the 2nd batch of pageant... Mine was 1st batch....
Was supposed to go in together but she was unable to make it... so separated....=(

Left : Sharon ( Model ) + Patrick ( birthday boy ) + ??? + ME!!
yeah celebrated his birthday at Pyramid..year 2008 i think...

Camwhoring as usual before the pageant starts!

All participants.... =)
Enjoy viewing, there is a lot alot more!!!!

More pica..........

Me and my beautiful Sabahan Angela Audrey.. Love her too bitsss!
I met her during the launch of Models Magazine till then we became so closed till now....
Happy to make great friends!!

All the participants :
Right : Sweet jessy Lim now an Air Asia air stewardess + Belle + Jessica How + cnt rmber + Yvonne Khoo + cnt rmber + Michelle

DJ of the night!

Singer from a live band... her voice is drop dead damn GOOD!!

Co- founder & Director of Models Magazine...= Leng Yein
She's only 24 years old when she did her own magazine from scratch and she did deals with a lot of nasty people to get this event performed smoothly....and still there is people who wants to bribe her..... anyhow was so glad everything turns out perfect!

Continuing pictures.....

Supporters from LY, Belle, and PatrickTee and friends. All purposely bought so many of the thingy so that I can win ).... It counts on that and the marks from Judges as well.

The judges are Jeff, (model ) and the rest was all Models and Agencies.
So bear with me my pose was normal only as its my first time doing in club and I was so nervous....

Hair Stylist : SNIPS

1st Part : My own clothing

2nd : Belle bikini's

3rd : Belle dress

Accessories : Own

Miss Malaysia C18 Dreamgirls Pageant

Final part : In a casual dressy wear

Pose.. poseee...poseee

2nd : Bikini part : me turning sideways as first time in pageant and there are photogs everywhere... dunno where to look at.... =)

in a close pic

I like this so far.... Side angle is way better looking for me even Leng Yein agreed so...

1st Part : Back View, thanks to Patrick Tee, official photographer for Models Magazine.

Me introducing myself in front of thousand of people to support me as a new beginner

and my best angle again.....

This is me !!! in year 2007.....Believe me or what... I lost 5kg in 3 weeks.... and I have to do so cause Leng Yein told me she delayed the pageant because of me... she told me to lose wieght in 3 weeks time and I was "" sHHIT...how am i going to do that"" well nothing is impossible.... just have to be really strict with it... and I was so happy! I lost my double chin and my belly is flat... really really small tummy... even when i sit down...there's just left small tyre... =)I can still remember... so my target for now is to be back like this and lose weight till i reach 45kg!!

ALL participants for the nights!
and I didn't win only able t be the finalist but oh well for me experience that counts....

** Smile smile **

PS : The club looks very familiar to you?? hehe... It's the turnover club to MIST!

Photoshooting for Models Magazine

These 1st pic is my most favorable among the rest. Was taken place at Leng Yein studio house located @ Bangsar Villa.
Accessories and clothing = belongs to her.
Hair Stylist : Alex Gun


Photographer : Hong Kai

Make up Artist : Sponsors from LY















Left : The first Models Magazine been released out nationwide including Brunei, Sarawak and Sabah.

Right : It's me inside for the lingerie catwalk... Tiny me.... =)
( Cannot see what I'm wearing cause it went by heights) so yeah....

Modeling Experience... or Life

==> Ticket been sold that night!

Sorry, the pictures are all under one wire, so here are the events in year 2007 @ Ruums, first opening Models Magazine launch.. these are the crowds....


the two lingerie models which you can seen are the MC's for the night and yes they are Models. =) and the right side, is the Models Magazine Adv...


This is me.... 21 years old, taken by someone...( my first time supporter ) ... and is my first ever time involving in modeling line.. never been my thing to do but i always wanted to try.. so why not... and yes I was gaining weight at that time.... now no...different...As I know I can do it.....Just need time....

Hair Stylist : SNIPS
Clothing : one of the famous and expensive boutique located at Damansara Perdana.

Well.................

I have A story to tell, I'm just like any other girl who seeks things in life, she's a lil over dramatic and sometimes she wary over non-existence believes. She is a person who allows another to take her for granted and that makes her a person who sees NO evil but only good, she vunerable & a lil crazy but her intentions are pure as innocents. At times, she even lies to herself to keep her Heart content, if you take a look at her closely, everything she does is all done for you alone until she almost forgot that she comes First before all, yet you are still her World and every inch of her world is filled with only great compassion for you; The beauty part is, she ask for nothing in return.

It takes one to be like her.

2010

This year, a new year to begin my new life with my new boyfriend + new resolutions. The boyfriend name is Sherman ShriJaya. How i know him? Well, this is the first time I actually did know a guy through my friend, mostly all my ex which I met and known are through Friendster, or Myspace, I know very in an uncommon way to get to know your partner. So now him, i know him in real life is like the happiest thing which happened to me. Its a new thing for me. =)

It started on November 26th i guess, ( oh gosh this is embarrassing cause I only remembers the date i said that he's mine ) It was Ladies Night at Habanero. and i was with Jessica only and yeah there is fugly things which happens and I don't even want to remembered it. It's a lesson to learn and also a lesson to remembered and think wisely. I remembered I was dancing with 2 guys and Jessy in the end i was dancing with him. I was rather shy at first and i keep look out at Jessica as I'm always very protective of her as there will be idiots will be disturbing her. and yes there is...

I remembered I keep on asking him for Coke for Jessy, so its like really not nice you know.. For me its really really not nice to ask a person when you don't even know him at all....It's just me....
So when the club ends, we were talking with the deena's sister, and others which I can't remember their names... and HIM.... and i was so embarrassed because I have to ask his name twice as I can't remembered.... so yeah....Then he ask for my mobile number which I was sooo happy cause I was expecting him to ask me... haha....

On Saturday night he invited me for this club hopping with Deena and her friend which I got to know. Vic..... and i was surprised.. wow.. he ajak me... hurm.mmm.. so I accepted it.... and when i reach Habanero at that time, when I was used to be with the ex, he didn't even talked to me.. I was feeling so uncomfortable... SMS him also he don't even want to reply...Got reply but so cincai...so i was like "Okay, he don't want to talk to me... fine then... and so i went to the ladies, i notice he was behind me... in my heart thinking want to stop and say hi? better don't....

Around 1.30am, we left Habanero and got into his car, and next thing i know,,,, he finally talked to me!!! after so many hours..... Greeat right? Next thing, he terus hugged me and kiss me on the cheek... I was " Woah.. okay that's fast" and I was smiling all the way... so you know Im shy and happy as well.... We went to first stop- Frangipani , my first time there and really damn alot of WHITE DUDES!!! Seriously but all so ugly.... Sorry to say this but you know just not my cup of tea....

Out of a sudden, he asked me to pass my pink shoulder bag to him, so I say its okay. I can hold it..as I'm very concern with my bag.. Not because its pink... its my belongings inside... It's very precious and important to me...If it's gone, I'll freak out and cry like a mad women! Trust me, I will ..... * smile smile ** so and then he was carrying it... I was shock and pause.. Okay... in my mind " i was thinking should I ask him whether is he flirting wit me.. and I did... I know he is...either he was denying it... I donnooo.... then he ordered Vodka shots... which I can't take it cause I can't... and I din finish it.. So sorry......

Next pit stop, Cloth & cleft? the boyfriend suddenly hold my hands ... so i just go with the flow... and i can see the smile in his face.... * smiling smiling so happily ** the most scariest place for me... I'll tell you why... It was so damn damn packed and filled with bhai and indian guys with different kind of races for the ladies.... and i wanted to get out from the place as I really have phobia with crowded places... and I get scared really fast and goose bumps... and i met my friends there and talking and hanging out... and next things i know .." POOF!! Deena hilang ke mana entah... and HIM went to toilet and i was like standing at my friends table... and i was panic already...and i saw deena busy dancing with her friends and him talking to his friends....so i texted deena and HIM im leaving the place cause I was shivering and i cannot take it.. so I walked out....then deena was asking me what happen,, then he also came out and drag me inside.. i was lagi extra PHOBIA!!! I'm a type of person which I cannot be in a very too CROWDED places.....then he was telling me, " u think i will leave you there all by yourself alone? So i reply to him, I'll get phobia in this kind of place, what do you expect me to do? Of cause I'll just walked out ....i was talking to him in an angry mode... cause ** u knw i was waiting for so long....and my friends were asking me to call them as he say the place is not really safe for a girl to be alone....and yeah i did sound like scolding him... and he knows i wasn't happy at alll.....


and i tell you, i got no MOOD at all at that time.... I cannot even MOVE, !!! and this is what i told him also... and his face expression '''hmmphh **** U KNOW....... then he ask me to dance... i was like thinking how to dance... there's an indian guy in front of me thinking dat i wan to dance with him and the answer is NO.. and i heard HIM whispering af my ears, says he wants to kiss me ...and more.. which i cant remembered.... so i turn around.. n I kiss him.... =) yes naughty me!

and yeah our tongues are swirling , playing in a sensual mood....and i was happy i kissed him.. Believe me... I do not do that not in front of like too crowded places...and i can feel his hands caressing my body.... wow....okay you may think i'm craze but im not....

So the night begins... and officially on November 30th, I'm proudly announces to everyone that he's MINE! and the following journey begins.....